lack of sleep has gotten me where?

i feel like i have been through hell and back these last couple weeks. my patience has been tested as well as my stress level and anxieties. my physical health has been questionable lately so i have been dealing with many doctors appointments as well as blood draws and other tests. and the fear of not knowing many things is definatly starting to get to me. i feel as if there are fifty million possibilities of things that could possibly be wrong with me and waiting another week is going to drive me insane!!! on top of me having to worry about my own physical health my poor baby has contracted some sort of stomach virus and has been sick for the last 4 days.,but it is as if he is fine for a couple days and then it comes back for a vengeance. i am currently sitting on my couch with my poor son on my lap and a bowl at my feet, just in case he gets sick again. my eyes are droopy and my stomach and heart is in knots. i know that tonight is going to be such a long night for the fact that i am so worried that it could be so many things and the fact that his doctors office can't seem to get him in until next week makes it even worse. these are the time when i can not wait to get started on healing myself i mean yes of course being a mom you worry about your children and empathize too the umth degree when they aren't feeling well but it is as if i make my own self sick stressing over him being sick. this anxiety has got me literally sick to my own stomach. i hate that i can't just shut my brain off long enough to get a good nights sleep, long enough to feel rested. i am so mentally and physically exhausted that i am so frustrated that i can't seem to sleep and i know that it will come in due time, that me doing the work with my therapist and everything but this is definitely the one thing that i really want some instant gratification here. since that really is not possible i will just sit here and listen to the suttle and relaxing sounds of my sick baby sleeping.